Δευτέρα, 18 Οκτωβρίου 2010
I bet you didn't know that she cried herself to sleep every night, thinking of you, replaying everything you ever said, everything you ever did and... wondering where she went wrong.
I bet you didn't know that seeing you was not the only way that made her think of you.
You didn't know that she didn't want to run away from you. You didn't know how hard she struggled with herself. Feelings coming straight from her heart whispering to her ears to stay... Common sense telling her to stop caring about you.
But how could she in the first place? People say that you shouldn't make someone your everything because when they are gone you have nothing. However, when you went your separate ways she did have some things. Memories accompanied her lonely nights, sweet melodies kept her heart warm and her love for you made her stronger, not weak, but stronger, because she knew she had a worthwhile reason to exist.
I still bet you didn't know how loneliness became an awful habit for her. You didn't know how many times she picked up the phone back then, and how fast she would type and erase your phone number..Type. Erase. Type. Erase. Type. Erase. And then the hole in her chest would grow bigger and bigger, because she was terribly missing you, like a small child misses his mother and no one else can take her exceptional place.
Though she was dying to hear your voice-she missed that overwhelming feeling she got everytime you spoke to her- she would just deprive herself of that little pleasure. Not because she was angry at you, but because she didn't know what was the right thing to do at that time. So, remaining silent seemed the most appropriate way to go through that confusion. I bet you didn't know that her happiest moments weren't complete if you were not by her side. You didn't know how she treasured the time spent with you. Did you know anything at all? Who was that girl? Why did she always look kind of sad, kind of thoughtful? I bet you didn't know, did you?